Waiting for my world to change....

well.. it's been a few months after my last post, 18 Minutes of My Life and a lot of things have happened during that time.. such as, my trip to Surabaya, my trip to Semarang, my work interviews with Wthfrd and Mttmcdnld, my sister new blackberry as a gift from me and Mr. T, Mr. T's non stop trips to field.. and the most important thing for me is the result of that 18 minutes of my life...

I was right when I said that 18 minutes is going to change my life forever... because God is so great to help me passed that test... and also the next few steps after...
the interview with the HR, which I thought i wouldn't passed.. but I passed it...
the interview with the user, which I thought is the important key to help me get "a ticket" to the next step, I also passed it...
and the last assessment which was really drop my self esteem, being together with a lot of smart and young people, was kinda frightening me... I thought I couldn't passed it, I've made so many stupid mistakes during that assessment... but just like I said (and everyone said) GOD is SO GREAT.. He helped me pass it through... and I passed it :) Thank God...
And last saturday I've done the medical check up, I hope that everything will going right so there's no more barrier for me to reach my dream, my life target... and i give all my hope in the hand of God, who always know what's best for me.. I hope he will help me passed this one also :)

then wish me luck.. I will update you soon as i get a lucky call from the company HR.. amen... :)

18 minutes of my life

This afternoon, I took a test for a company that always been my dream company to work for... And this is the 1st test for the recruitment process.. it only took 18 minutes and 24 questions, but I believe that's enough to change my life forever...

They promised, the result will come out in 3 weeks period.. I don't know how the result is going to be, but I believe that whatever it is, it must be the best for me..
So I give up all my struggles to the hand of GOD.. who has a greater plan for myself than I ever dare to imagine...amen.

Happy New Year!!!

And finally I have my own resolution for 2011 :
"Become more patient in waiting for God's time and become more optimistic in living my life, because God's plan is bigger than mine."

Well then, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! May all your wish will come true in 2011 and so do mine :) amen.. 

Sent from my Gemma ~ The Lovely Pinkberry™


PS : this actually is an old draft.. haven't had time to post it during this 3 months, but now... so here it is, my new year post.. :)

Madonna's Quotes

A lot of people are afraid to say what they want. That's why they don't get what they want.

Sometimes, you have to be a bitch to get things done.

I'm tough, ambitious and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay.

Poor is the man whose pleasures depend on the permission of another.

I stand for freedom of expression, doing what you believe in and going after your dreams.

It takes a REALLY big man to fill my shoes.

Freedom comes when you learn to let go. Creation comes when you learn to say no.

Are you ready to start a revolution? Are you ready to change a history?

The critics have been writing me off for 20 years. That's nothing new. As far as I know, I still have plenty of fans and sell lots of records. Do I care what critics say about me! No, and I don't read reviews.


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Happy Birthday to ME!!

yes.. Happy Birthday to Me!!!!!

No matter how I hate the birthday since I always want to stay young.. but still, 8 December is my birthday...

Well, I'm officially reach my 23rd years of my life on earth... What's the difference? Eventho' everything is way more better than 5 or 6 years ago; i have my stable job, i have my own money, i have invented a few uniqueness in me that can make me proud of myself, i have been more mature... but there are still a few dreams and wishes that stay unreachable until now... and it distracts me from enjoying my life... not that I'm not thankful for my life, but it makes me feel incomplete and desperate...sometimes...

I have a faith that someday I'll have everything i've been dreaming of.. but the question remain are "When?" and "How?"  I believe in God, but I also believe in struggle... for me without one of them, its impossible to reach our dreams... So what I need to do now is to struggle... but HOW????

Yesterday, my BF got an offer from a drilling company.. They offered a big numerous of benefits for him, and he discussed it with me and said that maybe he could ask them to increase the benefits..
He asked my opinion about it, and all i can say was "its up to you... your life, your decision"

I know, that i should be more supportive, but its just hard to be supportive when that is your dream that he catch and for him it wasn't enough.. D*MN IT!!!! I feel like i want to scream  in front of him, "HEY I'M DYING TO GET THAT JOB!!! AND NOW YOU JUST MAKE IT LOOKS LIKE IT WAS NOTHING FOR YOU!!!!!"

Still..for me, sometimes life is unfair.. there are some people that dying to get something, but that thing is given to another people that don't really need it...

Yes, this is the reason why i hate getting older... when we was in school, life was just so right... everyone got the same question in exam, if you can answer it right, then you'll get a good score, but if you can't answer it, you'll get a bad one... but the more you grow up, life is not give you the same test, the same question and the same opportunity with others... that's why i called it unfair..

After all, that's my random thoughts in my birthday.. not a good thought, but a real one :)

Here I Am - Bryan Adams

 

Here I am - this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am - it's just me and you
And tonight we make our dreams come true

It's a new world - it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day - it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am

Here we are - we've just begun
And after all this time - our time has come
Ya here we are - still goin' strong
Right here in the place where we belong

Here I am - this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am - it's just me and you
And tonight we make our dreams come true

Here I am - next to you
And suddenly the world is all brand new
Here I am - where I'm gonna stay
Now there's nothin standin in our way
Here I am - this is me

Complicated - Rihanna

You're not easy to love

Why is everything, with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you

Ohh.. I hate it?
Cause if you really wanna be alone

I would throw my hands up cause baby I tried
But everything with you is so complicated,
Oh why?

Sometimes I get you, Sometimes I don’t understand.
Sometimes I love you, Sometimes it's you I can't stand.
Sometimes I wanna hug you, Sometimes I wanna push you away.
Most times I wanna kiss you, Other times put you and every minute you start switching up
And you say things like, ‘ You don't give a f*uck!'
Then I say, ‘I'm through with you.' Take my heart from you.  

And you come running after me, 

and, baby, I'm back with you.

Why is everything, with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you

Ohh..I hate it?
Cause if you really wanna be alone, 

I would throw my hands up cause baby I tried
But everything with you is so complicated,
Oh, why?

Sometimes I catch you, Sometimes you get away
Sometimes I read you, Other times I’m like, ‘Where are you on the page?’
Sometimes I feel like we will be together forever
But you’re so complicated my heart and all is bitter.

Why is everything with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you

Ohh..I hate it?
Cause if you really wanna be alone, 

I would throw my hands up cause baby I tried

But everything with you is so complicated,
Oh, why?