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Welcome to my journal :)
its all about what i feel or what i thought about random things surround me... it also contains my random ideas that just suddenly appear in my mind...well, this is not a blog about something specific, but only a note of my scattered thoughts.
Enjoy!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

See you when I see you...


Dear all,

Di hari terakhir saya bekerja di Duta Lintas Nusa, izinkan saya dengan seluruh kerendahan hati mengucapkan rasa terima kasih saya yang sebesar-besarnya kepada rekan-rekan semua yang selama ini tidak hanya menjadi rekan kerja, tetapi sudah menjadi teman, sahabat, guru, mentor, kakak dan keluarga bagi saya.

Terima kasih karena sudah memberikan saya kesempatan untuk menjadi bagian kecil dari keluarga besar PT Duta Lintas Nusa, yang tidak hanya menjadi sebuah tempat kerja, tetapi sudah menjadi rumah kedua bagi saya.

Terima kasih atas semua ilmu dan pelajaran yang telah diberikan kepada saya selama lebih dari 1,5 tahun terakhir ini. Yang tidak hanya memberikan saya ilmu di bidang pekerjaan, tetapi sudah menjadi sebuah sekolah kehidupan yang mendewasakan saya, menjadi pribadi yang berbeda dibandingkan 1,5 tahun yang lalu.

Terima kasih atas semua canda, tawa dan persahabatan yang terus menguatkan saya di saat-saat yang berat.

Terima kasih atas semua nasihat dan bimbingan yang membuat saya terus berkembang dan menjadi lebih siap untuk menghadapi tantangan yang lebih besar dari dunia luar.

Terima kasih atas semua kepercayaan dan kesempatan yang diberikan kepada saya untuk dapat memberikan sedikit kontribusi saya untuk perusahaan yang kita cintai ini.

Terima kasih atas dukungan yang sangat besar yang diberikan kepada saya, yang akhirnya memberanikan saya untuk mengambil satu langkah lagi dalam kehidupan saya.

Terima kasih karena telah memberi saya kesempatan untuk dapat mengenal dan belajar dari kalian semua, pelajaran yang sangat berharga yang tidak akan pernah bisa saya didapatkan di bangku sekolah manapun.

Terima kasih atas semuanya yang telah diberikan kepada saya.

Saya tidak akan menyebut ini sebagai perpisahan, karena dimanapun saya berada nantinya, kalian semua akan tetap menjadi bagian dari diri saya.

“I carry your heart.. I carry it in my heart” – E.E. Cummings

Sampai jumpa sahabat-sahabatku, may God bless you abundantly and see you…. (when I see you) J



With love,
Stephanie Destin Merryane


NB : this is my farewell letter to my mates in my current office.. and by Monday I'll be working on a company that has always been my dream to work for.. :) wish me luck...

Friday, June 10, 2011

Love or Career

LOVE OR CAREER adalah permasalahan terbesar yang dialami setiap perempuan. Mereka selalu dihadapkan pada pilihan their love or their career...

Gw bahkan pernah mengutip salah satu quote dari film favorit gw yang bilang,

"Kalau kehidupan cinta kamu mulai berantakan, itu tandanya karir kamu makin maju."

Is that really true?
Ngga juga, ada kalanya kehidupan cinta loe berantakan dan karir loe tetep jalan di tempat..
*trust me, life could be that bitch*

Mungkin gw bisa mengkategorikan diri gw sebagai salah seorang perempuan yang memiliki permasalahan itu, tidak secara langsung, tapi lebih ke cara pandang gw terhadap diri gw sendiri.
Salah satu sisi dalam diri gw, selalu (ingin) melihat diri gw sebagai wanita yang menomorsatukan pekerjaan dan karirnya di atas kehidupan pribadinya.. kenapa? karena wanita seperti itu adalah wanita yang kuat, they are powerful women and  I want to be one of them so damn bad..

Tapi salah satu sisi dalam diri gw, yang gw sadari sampai sejauh ini, belum bisa menjadi sekuat itu.. selalu ada saatnya dimana gw merasa jatuh (because life *again* could be that bitch) dan gw butuh seseorang untuk menenangkan gw, dengan cuma bilang, "hey.. everything's going to be alright, just wait and see.."
and thanks God I have that man right now :)

Apakah itu berarti gw lemah? gw gatau,,
tapi apakah gw sudah cukup kuat seperti yang gw inginkan? jawabannya adalah ngga. dan gw ga suka sama hal itu.. because what i really want is to be a powerful woman, but that little girl inside me won't let me be...

well. sampai sekarang gw masih gatau yang mana yang lebih gw pilih,, love or career..
but then, which one will you choose?

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Waiting for my world to change....

well.. it's been a few months after my last post, 18 Minutes of My Life and a lot of things have happened during that time.. such as, my trip to Surabaya, my trip to Semarang, my work interviews with Wthfrd and Mttmcdnld, my sister new blackberry as a gift from me and Mr. T, Mr. T's non stop trips to field.. and the most important thing for me is the result of that 18 minutes of my life...

I was right when I said that 18 minutes is going to change my life forever... because God is so great to help me passed that test... and also the next few steps after...
the interview with the HR, which I thought i wouldn't passed.. but I passed it...
the interview with the user, which I thought is the important key to help me get "a ticket" to the next step, I also passed it...
and the last assessment which was really drop my self esteem, being together with a lot of smart and young people, was kinda frightening me... I thought I couldn't passed it, I've made so many stupid mistakes during that assessment... but just like I said (and everyone said) GOD is SO GREAT.. He helped me pass it through... and I passed it :) Thank God...
And last saturday I've done the medical check up, I hope that everything will going right so there's no more barrier for me to reach my dream, my life target... and i give all my hope in the hand of God, who always know what's best for me.. I hope he will help me passed this one also :)

then wish me luck.. I will update you soon as i get a lucky call from the company HR.. amen... :)

Thursday, March 24, 2011

18 minutes of my life

This afternoon, I took a test for a company that always been my dream company to work for... And this is the 1st test for the recruitment process.. it only took 18 minutes and 24 questions, but I believe that's enough to change my life forever...

They promised, the result will come out in 3 weeks period.. I don't know how the result is going to be, but I believe that whatever it is, it must be the best for me..
So I give up all my struggles to the hand of GOD.. who has a greater plan for myself than I ever dare to imagine...amen.

Happy New Year!!!

And finally I have my own resolution for 2011 :
"Become more patient in waiting for God's time and become more optimistic in living my life, because God's plan is bigger than mine."

Well then, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! May all your wish will come true in 2011 and so do mine :) amen.. 

Sent from my Gemma ~ The Lovely Pinkberry™


PS : this actually is an old draft.. haven't had time to post it during this 3 months, but now... so here it is, my new year post.. :)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Madonna's Quotes

A lot of people are afraid to say what they want. That's why they don't get what they want.

Sometimes, you have to be a bitch to get things done.

I'm tough, ambitious and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay.

Poor is the man whose pleasures depend on the permission of another.

I stand for freedom of expression, doing what you believe in and going after your dreams.

It takes a REALLY big man to fill my shoes.

Freedom comes when you learn to let go. Creation comes when you learn to say no.

Are you ready to start a revolution? Are you ready to change a history?

The critics have been writing me off for 20 years. That's nothing new. As far as I know, I still have plenty of fans and sell lots of records. Do I care what critics say about me! No, and I don't read reviews.


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Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Happy Birthday to ME!!

yes.. Happy Birthday to Me!!!!!

No matter how I hate the birthday since I always want to stay young.. but still, 8 December is my birthday...

Well, I'm officially reach my 23rd years of my life on earth... What's the difference? Eventho' everything is way more better than 5 or 6 years ago; i have my stable job, i have my own money, i have invented a few uniqueness in me that can make me proud of myself, i have been more mature... but there are still a few dreams and wishes that stay unreachable until now... and it distracts me from enjoying my life... not that I'm not thankful for my life, but it makes me feel incomplete and desperate...sometimes...

I have a faith that someday I'll have everything i've been dreaming of.. but the question remain are "When?" and "How?"  I believe in God, but I also believe in struggle... for me without one of them, its impossible to reach our dreams... So what I need to do now is to struggle... but HOW????

Yesterday, my BF got an offer from a drilling company.. They offered a big numerous of benefits for him, and he discussed it with me and said that maybe he could ask them to increase the benefits..
He asked my opinion about it, and all i can say was "its up to you... your life, your decision"

I know, that i should be more supportive, but its just hard to be supportive when that is your dream that he catch and for him it wasn't enough.. D*MN IT!!!! I feel like i want to scream  in front of him, "HEY I'M DYING TO GET THAT JOB!!! AND NOW YOU JUST MAKE IT LOOKS LIKE IT WAS NOTHING FOR YOU!!!!!"

Still..for me, sometimes life is unfair.. there are some people that dying to get something, but that thing is given to another people that don't really need it...

Yes, this is the reason why i hate getting older... when we was in school, life was just so right... everyone got the same question in exam, if you can answer it right, then you'll get a good score, but if you can't answer it, you'll get a bad one... but the more you grow up, life is not give you the same test, the same question and the same opportunity with others... that's why i called it unfair..

After all, that's my random thoughts in my birthday.. not a good thought, but a real one :)